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I'll Live

by Andersen Silva

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A Blurb 01:39
He knew beggars and choosers, And winners and losers, In fact, he tried his hand at all those. Lovers and friends, Beginnings and ends, And the means, too, I suppose. He lived for a while, And died the same way. Not too much guile, A nice guy, they say. I'd tell you some more, If only I knew, How he was any different From me and from you...
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He rolled off the girl, Totally spent. He thought to himself sadly, "This just ain't what I meant When I talked about love, Talked about us," But he just bit his lip, And walked her out to the bus. CHORUS: Blond on blonde, And it happens just the same as before. His heart's been conned, He's in love, but to her, he's one more Guy who's fond Of the charms Of a blonde... Drank her off his mind, But it didn't take long 'Til he'd sniffed out another Though he knew down inside she was wrong. CHORUS: Blond on blonde, And the poor sap goes through it again. He's no James Bond, He'll get hurt, it's just a question of when. Jump in a pond; It's safer than Wanting a blonde! He just cannot resist Blondie's feminine wiles; For a blue-eyed blonde babe, He'd crawl a thousand miles! And that's his tragic flaw, Why he'll never be happy. Puts those damn blondes on a pedestal, When they're no better than you and me. CHORUS: Blond on blonde, And it happens just the same as before. His heart's been conned, He's in love, but to her, he's one more Guy who's fond Of the charms Of a blonde... 4th time around...
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I watched the foxy news anchor, Couldn't believe my ears! Our fair city was being invaded As I downed a couple more beers! Then they showed some video footage, And there, to my surprise, I saw beasty-looking giants Three and a half times my size! CHORUS: When giant giants attack, You don't know what they'll do. Will they tie you in a sack? Will they play chess with you? This giant giant attack Scares us beyond belief! Lots of oversized monsters Will surely bring us to grief. The leader of the giants Was a fearsome-looking thing. But when he tore into O'Malley's, We all found out he could sing! He belted out Madonna, Modern Lovers, Madness, too; The karaoke crowd there Just did not know what to do. CHORUS: When giant giants attack, You may find they're just like us. Just don't aggravate them, They may overturn your bus. The giant giant attack Wasn't so scary after all. Those big lugs want to party, So c'mon, give them a call! I played softball with the giants; I did it on a dare. Not a good idea, They kept knockin' it outta there. They're great big homely creatures, But they're fun to be around. The giant giant invasion Was really a mixer, I found! CHORUS: When giant giants attack, They might just want some friends. They're socially inelegant; Attacks are just means to ends. The giant giant attack Turned out happily after all. Those big lugs want to party, So c'mon, give them a call!
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Not An Exit 04:37
CHORUS: Too late now, I can't turn back, This is not an exit! No way out, except for- Not if I can help it. I was a star, my guitar took me far, But I lost myself in the fame. Tried a little smack, and I never once looked back, Buried myself in the game, You probably don't remember my name, In a coma now, each day's the same, a shame, I only had myself to blame. CHORUS: Such a fool, I did not see, This is not an exit! Can't escape, unless I- Won't you help me fix it? Boy of seventeen, full of hopes, full of dreams, Full of love for my sweetheart. Found to my despair the universe just isn't fair, The accident just tore her apart, From this world my girl did depart, I pointed the blade straight at my heart, dead heart, Nurses sadly reading my chart. CHORUS: Oh, please, no, just let me out! I thought this was an exit! A second chance is all I want, Don't let me be the one who wrecks it. Forty-three, I see, nothing really, but TV, My shows get me through each day somehow. Glass of red and CBS help me forget today's mess, Don't care who is president now, Reality shows make me say, "Wow," I wonder how much sex they'll allow, I vow, Never will I furrow my brow. CHORUS: Now my life is all behind me, It was not an exit! The only way out now is- DEATH! Not ready for my respite...
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I read the news today, oh boy... 1-2-3-4! Sittin' at the laptop, hair in fresh new spikes, Catchin' up on news, when I gasped and said, "Yikes!" Say it isn't so, tell me that he isn't gone! Weeks later, I still can't believe what I lay my eyes upon. Where can all the pinheads go, who's the new ringmaster? Gimme gimme shock treatment; oh, man, what a disaster! When she wouldn't date me, I let their tunes sedate me. Go ahead, berate me; but it seems to me just lately... CHORUS: Life's not fair, and Joey Ramone's dead! D'ya like my hair? I still have a full head. You don't care, didn't even hear what I said, What a nightmare, I should've stayed in bed. Punk, it was my refuge, and I guess that it still is, But an era is now over, an era that was his. Time to face reality, and let the past die; I'm sure I'm not the only one who wonders, "Why, oh why?" CHORUS I sit and stare into the grin of Skinny the Foo. I just wanna have something to do! Life goes on, I'm still an angry punker with a view, But an icon is now gone, and he's left me here with you. CHORUS (2x)
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Love, ain't it grand? Like lying naked on warm night sand. Makes you feel so hot, so alive, But those misguided fools never told you Love would drive you to the brink... I thought I was so strong, behind my Wall, No one could touch me, or make me feel. The world went by, I took in nothing at all; Should I have cared, was any of it real? (Does it matter?) Live for myself, live for right now! But one day, I learned, to my surprise, I could still be hurt, my guard was let down. I turned and faced you, and I was paralyzed. CHORUS: Now I see, love is the hole in the Wall, Killing me, setting me up for a fall. Can this be, can I be heeding love's call? Possibly, you just might be worth it all. Lowered my defenses, let you inside, Love broke through the Wall I built around me. I smiled, and I laughed, but later I cried; Now, through my tears, I finally see Shutting out the pain, I shut out the love, Letting in the love, invited in pain. You risk getting burned, but that is part of Feeling, and sharing, and so I say again, CHORUS And it hurts! (But it feels good...) And it hurts! (But it feels good...)
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For Dana 04:29
Woke up alone on Monday, Feelin' your absence, Oh, babe, supposed to be here with me... My whole world is moody grey, Missin' your presence, Oh, Dana, Dana, why is it that you can't see? We're meant to be, You and me, I cried away, All yesterday... CHORUS: And I'll never stop thinking of my perfect girl, Nothin' to ease my mind, I still see your curls! Time stood still when we found ourselves kissing, I know you're the one, and you're the one I'll be missin'... Forever. I know he was good to you once, But, baby, that's all gone, Husband or not, he's not worthy of you... I'm not the kind of man who hunts For women, and I'm not trying to con you, But, Dana, I'd be good to you and I know that you'd be good to me too! You've got to believe That you've got to leave, His love isn't true, He doesn't care about you... CHORUS I can't change your mind If you want to stay With the man who used to love you. But please know that for you I've pined, And I still hope that, maybe, someday You'll understand that our love will be so true. I'll wait until forever. No one else; no, never! You must return to me, So happy we would be... CHORUS I'm missin' you, Dana... forever. I'll wait for you, Bubbles... forever. I'll see your eyes, Scully... forever. (whispered) I love you, kiddo... forever.
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Look at the stars with me; Make a wish on that first one. Gazing upwards, you won't see Happy tears in my eyes, hon. You've changed my whole life around! The dark cloud above me is gone. Joy I once lost has been found, And your sweet love helps me go on. CHORUS: I want to give you the sun and the moon, I want to offer you more than this tune. Your love has kindled a flame deep inside; My feelings for you I just cannot hide. Days together in the sunlight, Your beauty like that of a rose. Cuddling close to you at night And gazing at you as you doze. Do you see warrior Mars? He stares sternly down at the world. Accompanied by all the stars, He watches this boy and this girl CHORUS: Who are watching him back in the night sky. At this moment, I wish I could fly. I need to be in your sweet presence, dear; My heart will ache until you are near. Look at the stars, my love; I wish you were with me tonight. I stare at the heavens above And picture you in the moonlight. Wherever you are, sweetheart, Look at the stars with me. Even when we are apart, We're together in infinity...
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Everyone smiles and tells me to cheer up, None understands I'm standing in the rain. A phrase or a song, a place where we once supped; Everything now is just a source of pain. Why should I cry when I think of her? Our love, though star-crossed, was a sweet, pure thing. But fate's cheated me, and now it's all over, Memories swamp me; I'm falling! CHORUS: The pain isn't physical, The damage not visible; But deep inside, I've been slain! It's all a source of pain... Easy to say, "I guess she wasn't the one," Easy for you to tell me to move on. So tell me where can I hide, where can I run? The truth in my heart is not so easy to con. CHORUS Memories sweet, I'm so glad that I met her; Nothing at all could ever make me forget her. But memory's bittersweet, it's all in the past. Should be with her now, but the cursed die's cast... She touched me so deeply, in so short a time. We loved each other though it was insane. And now I pay the price; forever I'm Reminded of what can't be. Damn this pain! Everything now is just a source of pain... This morning's unfulfilled dream is a source of pain... I'm afraid life itself's a source of pain...
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CHORUS: Swingin' in the park (after dark)! Swingin' in the park (after dark)! Swingin' in the park (after dark)! Swingin'... I was walkin' through the park, Had you so much on my mind, Alone there in the dark, Hopped on the swings so close to cryin', I was down 'n I was low, I was swingin' in the park after dark! Missin' you so bad, babe, I hoped that you would come back to me, No one else in sight As I launched myself... skywardly! And before I really knew it, I was swingin' in the park after dark! Well, it helped clear my head, Though my heart was still sore. I knew that you loved me As much as before. Had our brief moment, Now we'll have to see If we'll ever have more; 'Til then I'll be- CHORUS And that's the way it goes, babe, I'm waitin' in the park for you, Don'tcha take too long, babe, Don'tcha leave this little boy blue, I'm hopin' someday soon we'll be swingin' in the park after dark- Together! CHORUS: Swingin' in the park (after dark)! Swingin' in the park (after dark)! Swingin' in the park (after dark)!
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Woke up beside you on Monday, Woke up serene, with a smile, Couldn't believe you were with me, I lay next to you for a while. We hugged and we kissed and we cuddled, The love and the joy were so strong, Wished we could stay in bed longer, But my job wouldn't wait for too long... CHORUS: Don't know when I'll see you again, but I will, Don't know when I'll see you again, but I will! I showered and thought back to Sunday, At the Park, I waited for you, We came to the Nuthouse and caught up, I knew that our love was so true. You brought a smile to my lips, And such lightness to my heart, Doesn't matter where you go, We'll never truly part. Amazingly only ten hours, Ten better would be hard to find. I love you incredibly, my babe, You're here in my heart and my mind. You brought a smile to my lips, And such lightness to my heart, Doesn't matter where you go, We'll never truly part. I still see your eyes, Smell your perfume in the air, You're my angel, my sweet Bubbles, For you I'll always care... CHORUS: Don't know when I'll see you again, but I will, Don't know when I'll see you again, but I will! Love to kiss the tip of your nose, and I will, again, Heaven just to lay beside you, and I will, again...
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Rockhopper 02:24
Waddle, waddle, waddle, waddle, Swim, swim, swim! Hop, hop, hop, Then dive right in! Yeah, I'm a blond, From the Southern Hemisphere. You still don't get it, do ya? There's no polar bears here. I'm hungry and I'm cold, Want some squid, want some krill. When my mate takes the egg shift, Gonna eat my fill. CHORUS: Rockhopper, a penguin, I can't fly, but I sure can swim. Not from Russia, not the North Pole, But the climate change is looking grim. I hop from one rock to another, Look over miles of white. Our colony is smaller Than it was the other night. There's an orca out at sea Who really wants to eat me. But I think he's gonna see Catching me's not easy! CHORUS She's keeping our egg warm now And it's my turn to go eat. I'm feeling kinda scrawny, Hopping light on my feet. It's getting warmer here each year, Think we'll go further south. Times are tough, don't want to go on Living flipper to mouth. CHORUS (2x)
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Human Thing 02:02
Soulless politicians, they sell Future of mankind, they'll burn in hell! Gaia, Mother Nature, torn down; Keep it up, we'll all be six feet underground. Trust and love replaced by fear and hate. Forget our differences, ignore the bait. Why, oh why, do they want us to fight? One race of man, not three; yeah, that's right! CHORUS: It's a- human thing, I hope you understand, It's a- human thing, do you understand? I am not amused, not any more; Disgusted once again, look at the score! Televangelists and congressmen Sucking down our blood; they mustn't win! Come my brothers, sisters, stand with me. Together we can fight to be free! The power brokers try dividing us; They stay in control by doing thus. CHORUS: It's a- human thing, I hope you understand, It's a- human thing, you'd better understand! We can coexist, me and you, If we have the right attitude. Not my world, nor yours; it's ours to share. Show me that you love, and that you care. Do you think your god will condone Sins against mankind, our chances blown? Hell is full of those who hate and cheat. Love each other, please; this song's complete!
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Policies made, some are unmade, too. The men at the top don't give a damn about you. Don't you dare mess with them, they're accustomed to power; The U.S. President is always man of the hour. And he looks so cute, In his three-piece suit... CHORUS: We give these dangerous babies The most dangerous toys! Convinced that their way's right No matter what it destroys. It's easy to bomb when you don't see the faces. It's easy to send death to such far-away places. Diplomacy is harder, and it's frustrating, too, And that's why evildoers kill people like me and you. Who's right and who's wrong Doesn't matter for long... CHORUS If you won't play by their rules, the babies get upset. They never learned to share, they take all they can get. Throw their toys in your face if they can't be in charge, If you ask me, I think a time-out is looming large... He doesn't look so cute In the emperor's suit... CHORUS: We give these dangerous babies The most dangerous toys! Convinced that their way's right No matter what it destroys. Shake your rattles, little babies, Go on and make your noise. The day is gonna come When we take away your toys...
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I'm not a man makin' tons and tons of money, I'm just a guy, tryin' hard to find things funny. I'm the boy who wants to call you 'honey,' 'Cos around you, my days always seem sunny! I'm not a saint, though for you I'd try to be one. I'm just a man who knows he's found a reason, For everything to which there is a season, 'Cos it is you whom I long to be pleasin'... CHORUS: I'm a fool, I'm a prince, For lack of further evidence, I'm your hero On the lam, That's just what I am! I'm not a jerk, afraid to try a real change, Not a sleepwalking man, no, I'm really not that strange. I'm not your rival, I don't want to compete; I'm your partner and your friend; you make me complete. CHORUS: Guitar player With a pick, I'm a hopeless romantic, I'm the guy Who'll push the pram, That's just what I am! Without you I am grim and fatalistic; But with you I am supercalifragilistic! I'm happy and I'm silly, all because of you. And that is why I am the man who loves you. Lovestruck boy, (I am the man who loves you...) I'm your toy! (I am the man who loves you...) Cybergeek, (I am the man who loves you...) I'm not a freak! (I am the man who loves you...) I'm your poet, (I am the man who loves you...) I think you know it. (I am the man who loves you...)
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Second Shot 02:36
I lost you and cried, My spirit nearly died! You went on with your life; For my part, I tried To get through each day, Come what may. If I could see you again, Here is what I would say... CHORUS: "I want a second shot with you, I think that you want it, too. Please come back to me, my love! 'Cos you're all that I can think of..." Of you I still dreamed; Sometimes the tears streamed. You were deep in my heart Forever, it seemed. Our love had been true, Though our moments too few. If I could see you again, This is what I'd tell you... CHORUS: "I want a second shot with you, You make the whole world seem brand new. Come make me a happy man, 'Cos, baby, you're the only one who can." Got a message from you, Too good to be true! We talked and we talked, The fat we did chew. Then we got together, Like we'd parted never. I poured out two shots, Gave you my heart forever! CHORUS: I got a second shot with you! I guess somehow I always knew, That our souls were too intertwined, And that the Fates had plans designed To bring you back to me someday. And so, on my knees I'd like to say, This second shot is nectar from the gods, I got you back, despite the odds...
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Today 03:18
Thanks for making me smile, And thanks for being my friend. You've been there all the while, I hope you're there 'til the end. If it weren't for you, I'd be a lesser man. I hope you know what you mean to me And so I say, 'cos I can: CHORUS: Treat every day like a birthday, Not necessarily yours! When you open your heart to friends Your heart suddenly soars. We may not always agree, We sometimes annoy each other, But just the same, to me, You're my sister or brother. So I say thanks again, For the good times and bad. I just want you to know I appreciate what we've had... CHORUS Let us pretend it's my birthday, Say that it's your birthday, too, yeah. Everyone's got a birthday, And should have a friend like you! Happy birthday, my dear friend, May today bring you bliss. I've got some wonderful pals, And I'm so thankful for this. CHORUS: Treat every day like a birthday, Not necessarily yours! When you open your heart to friends Your heart suddenly soars. I wish you a happy birthday, Whether it is or it's not; I love you and thank you, And hope I gave like I got...
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I'm goin' down the shore, yeah, I wanna get some sun, Wanna lay on the sand, and just have some fun! Seaside and Point Pleasant are crowded, I know; The boardwalks are real nice, but that's not why I go... Gotta pick a nice day, and head for the beach. At least in New Jersey, it's not out of reach! A big beach towel, and of course sunblock; Summer mp3s, 'cos you know I like to rock... CHORUS: Who knows what's in store? Let's go down the shore! The Parkway is a zoo, because the weather's great, Look at all those cars stuck at exit 98! Surf City, here we come, soon we'll reach LBI. The temperature's high, with not a cloud in the sky... Hit the Wawa for some snacks, and a drink or two, Then we take the beach by storm, 'cos the sky is blue. My Jersey girl by my side, next to her I'm lookin' pale; Her green eyes and the blue waves thrill this red-blooded male. CHORUS: I couldn't love you more... Let's go down the shore! I'm a Benny, I guess; doesn't matter to me. Right now, the Jersey shore's where I want to be. She's lookin' real good, and I'm lookin' a bit pink; I smile at my baby, and she gives me a wink. Havin' a great time, yeah, we're down the shore, Wish you were here with us down the Jersey shore. Think we'll get some ice cream 'cos we're down the shore, Say it how you want, but we say "down the shore..."
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We Go On 05:44
You and I, my baby, We should have better than this... I'd change it all if I could, And offer you more than this kiss. I'd take away your warm tears, And take mine away, too, But that power I have not, And so I say to you... CHORUS: Oh, my love, through the sorrow, I see joy some new tomorrow... We go on. Sometimes cruel and sometimes kind, Like love and justice, fate is blind... We go on. Better days shall come, love; I'm promising you. We'll smile and laugh again, This sad time we'll get through. But for now, just take my hand And take my strength, if you can. Life is what happens While you're making other plans... CHORUS You and I, my baby, Will be happy again one day. Please know that I love you Even when skies are grey...
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Heavywait 02:57
It's Friday night, you're home, convinced that you're not waiting by the phone, Watching television until you hear her unique ringtone. She's free and you dine out, happily not alone, You smile and clasp her hand, and your love for her you make well-known. CHORUS: But is she worth the wait? Oh, man, you know it's true! Can she be that great? She's so in love with you... You want to see her now! You just don't know what to do. It all works out somehow, Because your love is true. You're walking unencumbered down the shady side of the street, You're thinking to yourself, "There's just one girl I want to meet." Of course, you know she's out, as you grab yourself something to eat, But it won't be all that long 'til you see her again; ain't she sweet? CHORUS She's gone, far away, and you're waiting for her to come back. You try to keep yourself busy, but it's no use; you feel the lack. You pick up your guitar and jam, but your mind is on just one track; And finally, she comes home, and you head over and help her unpack. CHORUS
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I don't want to spend Christmas lonely, I want to be with my one and only, The girl who once told me she'd always love me... All I wanted was to make her happy, Even if it sounds a little sappy. And now I wonder if she's thinking of me... CHORUS: The cold is much colder, And I feel much older; Not hanging mistletoe, My Christmas spirit's low. I remember decorating our tree, Piling gifts until there was no space free, And kissing her to "Another Auld Lang Syne." My pretty baby went ice-skating with me. We saw the show at Radio City. And now, alone, I am left to pine... CHORUS: Oh, the snow is fallin', But my true love ain't callin'. All the church bells in town Well, they're just bringin' me down... So if I seem a little lost this season, I'm thinking that you'll figure out the reason; Still, I wish you all joy in the new year. Honey, please, don't forget about me, Though you'll unwrap your gifts without me. Christmas won't be the same if you're not here... CHORUS: The cold is much colder, And I feel much older; Not hanging mistletoe, My Christmas spirit's low. I don't want to spend Christmas lonely, I want to be with my one and only, The girl who once told me she'd always love me...
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Six Months 03:35
Now and then, you see a soul and you fall in love, You can't do a thing about it... Six months, babe, since I last saw you; Didn't know that we'd soon be through. Blowin' kisses to me as I left, But six months later, I am bereft. Always knew how to take my breath away; Six months later, and I feel every day, In my heart, and stuck in my throat. There's just no way to sugarcoat... CHORUS: Even when the skies are blue, not grey, There's an ache in my heart, honey, every day. I'd have gladly taken you for my wife, But now I'm alone, and I miss my life. In the thirteenth month, on the thirteenth day, Told me we couldn't go on this way. Ain't too proud to beg, babe, ain't too proud to cry; Had sushi at your house, you and I. We talked it out, we kissed and made up. I left your place happy as a pup. Together once more, at least for a while, I kissed your tears, and I kissed your smile. CHORUS: Even when the skies are blue, not grey, There's an ache in my heart, honey, every day. There's no more flame burning in my heart, anymore; You're the one my cold blue eyes are searching for. They say you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone, But I did, and without it I go on. No more joy, in the now or in the new; I think only of when I had the solace of you. CHORUS: Even when the skies are blue, not grey, There's an ache in my heart, honey, every day. Six months of purgatory, without you, Tell me, what am I supposed to do?
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Loster 02:56
I called up the girl, She gave me cold shoulders. Promised her the world; The silence grew colder. Thought back to the one who Loved me way back when. I lost her, lost fun, too, And I want them back again! CHORUS: She's not hard to find, She's hard to hold on to! I'm losin' my mind, Don't really want to. So it's back to the grind, Until I am gone, too. Life is so unkind; She's hard to hold on to. The date went OK, Could've gone better. She might've liked me, If only I'd let her, But my thoughts still strayed To the one who got away. I guess I'm afraid Of the memory of yesterday... CHORUS I look to the skies, And I see her eyes. I search everywhere, But she's not there! I'm going quite mad inside, And it's self-inflicted. Still, it can't be denied That my heart... well, she kicked it. CHORUS: She's not hard to find, She's hard to hold on to! I'm losin' my mind, Don't really want to. So it's back to the grind, Until I am gone, too. Life is so unkind; She's hard to hold on to. They say love is blind, I say it's a con, too! She's left me behind, She's hard to hold on to.
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She's a frendy tucker; She shouldn't be wearing hip-huggers but she is! Torturing that denim, Making all the guys who pass say, "Gee whiz..." CHORUS: You think that you're so hot, you think that you're so cool, But if you're a frendy tucker then you're nothin' but a fool. Think for yourself, don't let them tell you what to do! One day you'll realize that you've got to be you. He's a frendy tucker; You could fit another tucker inside of those jeans! And the sideburns are so '70s, Might have inherited them from his daddy's genes... CHORUS Laugh at the frendy tuckers; But spare them some of your sympathy! They're oh so superficial, But they could still become human potentially. CHORUS: You think that you're so hot, you think that you're so cool, But if you're a frendy tucker then you're nothin' but a fool. Think for yourself, don't let them tell you what to do! One day you'll realize that you've got to be you. Don't be like them; be like yourself. In the end, you'll find you can count on no one else. Fashion is a joke, taste is subjective, And following along is just no way to live. Don't be a frendy tucker, Don't be a frendy tucker, Don't be a trendy fu-
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She was losing her mind, she was eyein' the door, Ready to bolt if she got yelled at once more! Clients with 'tudes, unreasonable demands; She wants to cut loose and rock out to some great bands. CHORUS: She can't wait for Rock and Roll Day! It's her time to rock the night away. Tomorrow she'll go back to the working world, But for right now, she's a rock and roll girl. A nine-hour day, and he was ready to go! The technically clueless had him feeling so low. Call after call, 'til he can't stand the phone; He needs some loud music to get back in the zone... They're just gonna have some fun, down at the rock and roll club! Ain't no party, ain't no disco, this ain't no Irish pub. He buys her a drink, and they jam to the noise; Drums, bass, and guitar, the most wonderful toys... CHORUS: They're so alive 'cos it's Rock and Roll Day! They intend to rock the night away. Their jobs can wait, the guitar's on fire. That rock and roll music is bringing them higher... They're just gonna have some fun, down at the rock and roll club! Ain't no party, ain't no disco, this ain't no Irish pub. He buys her a drink, and they jam to the noise; Drums, bass, and guitar, the most wonderful toys...
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Souls Broken 02:55
CHORUS: How do we live when souls are broken? The smile was real; now it's just a token. Unhappiness is most contagious. A way out would be advantageous. He spoke to her in tones of sorrow; she'd just told him she could see no tomorrow. Yesterday had left her broken, a nightmare from which she'd not awoken. Once they'd been happy together, but she just could not escape the bad weather In her heart and in her soul; the tempest has taken its toll... CHORUS All of his most wonderful days had involved getting lost in her gaze. She took away his angst and pain, though it seems that her own remained. He wanted badly a future together, but they were caught exposed in bad weather. The past is often shaped like a noose; should one just hang there or try to get loose? CHORUS And so the joy that they once shared is all gone, because she's scared To face and deal with the past that scarred her; now their lives are both harder. Living alone, not happy together, shivering under bad weather, Their souls broken now, will they mend? Or are they each down a dead end? CHORUS
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I sit beside the pool, And let the tensions ease. Feelin' like a fool 'round girls who like to tease. The water is inviting To skin that's hot and sore, Instead, I sit here writing, Think of her, and you, and more... CHORUS: I try to leave it all behind; In sand, it's so damn hard to run. My future is not well-defined; My past is burning in the sun. I think back to the trips We planned, but never took. I think back to your lips, Stealing kisses like a crook. The sweat upon my back, The glare in my blue eyes... I'm pondering a snack As these lyrics I revise. CHORUS: Memories crashing down like waves; Times of sorrow, and of fun. Like badly marked and sandy graves, My past is burning in the sun. Full moon, Lights up the beach. My tune Is just out of reach. I wake up with a start; Nostalgia fades away. Peace within my heart, Though my shoulder burns today. Face into the sun, Embracing all that's passed, I think on all I've done. Wow, the time goes fast. CHORUS: No longer want it left behind; From my past, I will not run. For a moment, I am blind, And wonder at the brilliant sun.
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D.V. 02:20
Woke up this morning it happened again! Remnants of vision around in my head. Know it'll take place, I just don't know when. Faded away, and I lay as one dead. Chilling sensation, why do I see Bits of my future when none should appear? Seems like a dream, but eventually I'll live out the scene and confront my strange fear. CHORUS: I've got that deja vu feeling, AGAIN! I've got that deja vu feeling, AGAIN! I don't want to believe, yet somehow I know What you'll say next to me, how I will reply. I wait for your words; they seem to come slow. This predestination to change I will try. I blurt out a statement, not what I recall; Suddenly, it seems I've broken the spell. I brace myself mentally expecting to fall, But it's over now, got no story to tell. CHORUS Woke up this morning, it happened again! Remnants of vision around in my head. Don't know when it'll stop, but I guess until then I'll just have to hope I don't see myself dead...
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Let Me 03:08
I have lied to, lied to you, Let me say I'm sorry for that. I have knocked you off kilter, Like the rakish angle of your hat. I want another chance, oh, honey; Please don't say the point is moot. Let me show you that I love you, Give you my love, and the world, to boot. CHORUS: Let me show you I'm not hateful. Let me show I truly care. Let me bare my wretched soul. Oh, please, please, let me be there. I have acted recklessly, dear; Let me be a friend of yours, To remind you what is real, To prop open closing doors. Cannot see rainbow connections, Not right now, 'cos I'm a creep. Let me back in your defenses, Let me watch you as you sleep. CHORUS Never meant to cause so much pain. Never wanted to betray you. Let me try to win your trust back. Can you save me, or am I through?
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The girl who made me wait, and then never came back, The boy who'd do it all for you, but didn't do jack. The blind date that ended up so tragically wrong, The romance that you swore would make the perfect love song. The left-hand turn that led me to a head-on collision, The time under the knife, that doctor's incision. Betrayals and abandonments, cruel twists of fate, Maybe they were just methods of making us wait. CHORUS: Who knows? They might be roses, Lovely in their own way. Try lifting them to your noses, While keeping sharp thorns at bay. The train you missed, the traffic jam that made you late, It could just be the universe cleaning your slate. A bit of deviation from what you expect, Could change your life so much, the butterfly effect. CHORUS Sometimes what hurts right now is really all for the best. Perhaps the heartbreak and the loss is part of the test. You can't possibly know what still lies in store, By dealing with this now you may end up with so much more. You might end up bloodied when picking a rose, You may discover that your friends have become your foes. Petals fall, flowers die, but those thorns remain; New blooms will follow, so rejoice in the rain. CHORUS
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Honey, you bring me so much happy! Sometimes, it overwhelms me so. Always, always you and me, Never could I let you go. CHORUS: My love, sweet and pure and true... I will live my life with you. Sweet girl, I'd almost given up hope, It seemed I'd spend my days alone. Never, never more will I mope; Oh, how my happiness has grown. CHORUS You're my sunshine! I'm feelin' fine, Since you've been mine! Baby, it almost seems like a dream. We are so hopelessly in love. You warm my life like you're a sunbeam, Venus smiles on us from above. CHORUS
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I still catch myself saying "we" instead of "I," I still catch myself about to smile, but then I sigh. Sometimes I wake up forgetting that I'm all alone, Sometimes all I can do is wish that I heard your ringtone. I look for your car although I know it won't be there, I miss holding you close, and running fingers through your hair. I miss the special way you made me feel with just a kiss, I look so perplexed trying to make some sense of this. CHORUS: I rose higher than I'd ever been before, And then I fell, oh, so much further... Remember when we lost track of time in Central Park? Remember the beach at night, kissing in the dark? The future we dreamed up is now locked up in the past. Was I really so wrong to think this love would last? CHORUS: All I wanted was to make you happy, Seems the goalposts got moved back further... I don't know if we will end up back together, I do know there were other storms we both weathered. You turned my life upside-down, then turned it back once more. You brought me so much happy, then walked out the door. CHORUS: Suddenly, you seemed to me so far away, And then you moved, oh, so much further...
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SeptSomber 03:26
The summer's almost gone, Autumn's on the way. I just don't know what to do; I just don't know what to say. In the air, a chill, In my heart, the same. Sighing with the wind, Sighing out your name... CHORUS: September, I'll always remember, Spending somber days alone. These days I used to love, Watching leaves fall from the trees. Now I miss your company, Sharing warmth in the cool breeze. Thought my life was tied to yours, Thawed my cold blue eyes. Then you went away, A lonely mourning dove cries... CHORUS You've forever changed me, Changed the way I see the world. I miss walking through That world together, pretty girl. "Get over it," they say; No one tells me how. Through these shorter, colder days, I mourn, I wander, and I vow... CHORUS
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The discontent of my winter... You just don't know how I loved her. She left me cold in the summer, What she did to my heart was murder. The icy grip of December... I tried so hard to remember Our warmer days without number, But instead, I sunk into slumber... CHORUS: She hurt me so gods-damned much, I don't know if I will ever heal. The magic and sunshine in her touch Is something I'll never again feel. The snow and ice chilled my heart, I felt as though she'd torn me apart. Her cold disdain for our warm past Made it clear that the die was cast. Cold and alone for Valentine's, I looked back and searched for signs Of my long-lost happiness. Now I just feel hapless. CHORUS The discontent of my winter Makes me shiver this time each year. In my heart, an icy splinter Replaces the love that I held dear.
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I woke up in the morning and I opened up my eyes, Admitted that I couldn't tell what's truth and what is lies. I harbor hate for no one, and I wish no one harm, But my world is now darker; everything has lost its charm. Well, all right, that's not quite true, I guess I must confess; Ask me if I plan to live and I will tell you "Yes." More stable than I was once; I think so, anyhow. But my life's not what it was, everything's different now. CHORUS: I can laugh! I can smile. Havin' fun, just for a while. But inside, this I vow; Everything's different now. I remember being young, being so naïve, These days, I find less and less that I really believe. Betrayal takes two, as once sang Richard Hell; I've been on both sides, know the damage all too well. I'm not who I once was, nor who I'm yet to be, But I'm reasonably certain that I am in fact still me. The world has changed; of that I'm sure, a bit bleaker somehow. At least to my cold blue eyes, everything's different now. CHORUS I woke up in the morning, and I let out a sigh, Stifled it quite quickly, and gave the day a try. Managed to keep my angst down to a whispered scream; Finished off the day, and slept without a dream. Experience has shaped me, and made me what I am; A man who wants to harm none, a hero on the lam. This reality is not where I thought I'd be now. I'm telling you, dear listener, everything's different somehow. CHORUS
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Too far gone... or is that me? Walking' to the laundromat, and thinkin' idly, Of a girl I knew somewhere, a girl I knew somewhen, Realizing now I'll never see that smile again. She had a spring in her step and a swivel in her hip, I sure miss the way that she'd bite her own lip. That woman made me laugh, she made me cry, too, And not quite the same way that some other women do... CHORUS: The sun comes up, and I'm still mourning; The doves in pairs, but I'm still alone. I can't help wondering if I missed a warning. Were there seeds that I could have unsown? Guess I knew that she was broken Even though we both were jokin'. We enjoyed our time Hanging out in Hoboken. If I could've only seen, If you know what I mean, If I'd known from the start She'd steal a piece of my heart... CHORUS It pains me to know I can't give her a hug, Or see her give me another lop-sided shrug. Why did she have to go? Don't think I'll really ever know... CHORUS: The sun comes up, and I'm still mourning; The doves in pairs, but I'm still alone. I can't help wondering if I missed a warning. Were there seeds that I could have unsown? The sun comes up, and I'm still alone; The mourning doves all gone but one pair. Brilliantly, she once shone, Now she's gone, but still everywhere...
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The Bite 03:12
Used to know a girl (OK, I loved her), Made life meaningful... for a while. But I guess I should have run for cover! Didn't know what lurked behind that smile. Thought she really cared, I thought she loved me! But I found out that she didn't know how. She played me, used me, made a fool of me! The bite she took of me, it still bleeds now...! CHORUS: She broke my heart, Shattered my soul, Don't know how to start Climbing out of this hole. Bit down into bone, Sank her teeth in me. Her heart was just a stone, Finally, I see... The wound she left inside my heart is raw still, Left me dazed, confused, alone with my pain. That woman is a beast, just out for the kill! Once she bites, you'll see that it was in vain... Love her, if you must, but beware the bite That will surely follow the embrace! Bandage yourself up, and try with your might Not to see the fiend behind the pretty face...! CHORUS Used to know a girl, what was I thinking?!? She made my life hell... for a while. Watch out for the bite, or you'll be drinking Her off of your mind; that woman's vile.
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I'll Live 03:43
Havin' dinner on the river when she calmly said, "You know, your pal, that hunky Sal, blows you away in bed." My jaw dropped open, I was hopin' she was teasing me, But no luck, the little sucker left unreasonably... CHORUS: And you ask me how I'm doin'... The unfortunate truth is that I'll live. Right now, it's me the universe is screwin', How much more do I have to give? Went to work; the balding jerk that I call my boss Said to me, "Well, I see you're broken up because Your girl left; you're bereft, but she was loose; Now she's with me," he said with glee, and gave me termination news. CHORUS Got out of there, I didn't care in which direction I went. My head was reeling, body feeling spent one hundred percent. Into the street my aimless feet began to propel me; A police car threw me up hard; is that fair, tell me? CHORUS The doctors say that some day I'll likely walk again, But since that sucker left, my luck has made me a has-been. I bought a gun, shut out the sun, and sat down in a chair; Looked at the trigger, then pulled it; The goddamned bullet Took out my nose, an eye, and half of my hair! CHORUS
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A Blur 02:39
He'd mourn and he'd seethe, Sometimes he'd forget to breathe! Breathing's overrated anyway. Smiled and he cried, And he eventually died, But he didn't notice 'til the next day. Sure, he had some regrets, Though they were too few to mention. A host of unpaid debts, And so much for that pension. He'd loved and he'd lost, Gotten hurt and he'd healed. His heart covered in frost, His life he'd not yield. CHORUS: Your eulogy can certainly use another verb; Better that your life be a blur than a blurb! He'd lived almost enough, Taken his share of licks. He had way too much stuff He couldn't bring 'cross the Styx. Finally, at the end, With a shrug and a sigh, He thought back on his life And he let himself die. CHORUS

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Let Talking Heads, David Bowie, Trent Reznor, the Cars, Roger Waters, and half a Ramone take turns writing and playing songs together, with Frank Zappa, Lou Reed, and Ringo Starr splitting vocal duties, and you might get something like Andersen Silva's music. Or you might not. ... more

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